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Your Queen here.
Spammers are not welcome.
People who hate me please go away..
I always treasure my love ones..
Be patient if you are going through any tough times like i am right now..
Learn from your mistakes and never let history repeats itself..
Let your experiences lead you to the right path..
& never look back, just keep moving forward..
Keep working hard, and you will succeed in life..
Do well in school, you will pass with flying colours..
Dont let anything turn you down and always remember that the word "failure" is never in our dictionary..
People who doesnt know whats the meaning of failure, will always succeed..
Just keep on smiling and act as if nothing happen and move on. .
Always be there whenever your loved ones need help.
You will learn new things as you grow old and you will know what to do next.
Always make your choices wisely and never regret.
Keep having a strategy and you will keep winning in a game.
Ofcourse there will emotional moments here and there, but that is just part of your life, especially in relationships.
I've learn alot ever since i've stepped into secondary school,lots of experiences and fun times i will never forget..
Just have to work hard and get a gd job in future..
You cant be weak. Or else, it will kill you..

Dont easily trust people. Do not put high hopes on guys.
Dont fool yourself and take life for granted because u may regret and lose everything.

& So, no more Fazdli (:
Abirah and Oni knows what happen. Korang sendiri binget right ? But thanks alot for defending me and you guys help me alot. THANKS ! (: aku sayang korang. Aku tkde laki tpi aku ade korang eyh ? (:
Aku boleh hidup laa tanpa jantan.

Just like Mira said, by observing me just like that does not tell what kind of girl i am. U think by fooling me just like that will tell you my true colours ? hah ! there's more in me. Im glad my gfs were there to help me. Prangai sundall nk mampos sia - abirah said. Binget sak aku dgn drg - Oni said. They themselves were fucking mad, then ape lagi aku kan ?

Lazy to elaborate it. & from now on, its difficult for me to trust guys. & Abirah , nk tgk ni cincin punk ? HAHAH ! siak². Ali, u can fool me but no matter what happens i have no regrets at all. I have nothing to lose. Err, i lose everything ? Not exactly. Tkde masa laah nk gado psl ni sume. Chit chat, talk talk and the end we decide to go our separate ways (:

Wads the ring for ? urgh,some guys can sometimes do watever it takes to make gerls believe them. And when they believe them, there is where BUAT PAKAI/USING takes place. Bile tknk tu ppn baru tgglkan mcm gitu je. Its hard for me to believe. Cos i've experienced it before and it is very ugly.

When you said you were confuse, from there i dont really trust you. And i know im gonna be hurt again.

I was hurt first before you okay gendeng. And wat u tell oni ? tkmo jadi mcm farah sudah? hah ! aku dgn oni kwn baek laa. sape nk gado psl jantan. Step kau sorang jantan pat dunie ni. & im not a playgerl , my attitude depends on the situation bodow. Ur frens see me as a playgerl. My frens see u as a _____ ? Bukan tkleh describe ah eh tpi for me to know for u to find out (:

I know Abirah and Oni binget sangat². But dont worry gerls. Da settle. Da tkde pape. Puas siket haty kus. Nothing to worry. & people who are reading this , please dont ask what happen. I wanna let things out here and i wanna forget this. Dont remind me of this yaw (:

BYE.

Labels: i regret knowing you.

250309.
Nothing much. The timing for my 2.4km run is 16.43 . Lol . Sitting around at the playground je eh korang ! Haha. Just had Malaydance after school. Had some bonding and settle things out. Minzie, once again, im sorry. Then , Otp with Ali at night using Nasir's phone. He ask me to come and watch him play soccer , ada match at dont know which stadium on Tuesday. I try my best to come larh okay(:
Decided to meet up tomorrow after school. Great ;D
& Dont worry Akim, insyaallah aku turon. Aku tetap jiwer korang lah (:

Today, 260309.
Ali called at 6.55am in the morning, telling that he is not going to school bcos he was sick and vomiting alot. Sigh, why people nowadays are sick ?. He thought i didnt go to school today, if i didnt he wanted me to accompany him go somewhere, i dunoe where. But sorry, went to school already. Get well soon ! (:

Got malaydance after school. Soooooooo t i r e d ! The costumes were awesome ! ^ ^
hehe. && Abirah, tmr, 27 (: ^ ^
U know i know and Mira knows. Haha. Glad to hear great news. Welcome back Fadil, Awun and Nabil. Rindu korang luh ! & Taufiq Juon , mane kamu ? Nk jumpe kau la! Da lama tk npk kau. You, badan sapau but still shortshort. Haha ! But i hope ur not mad about IT. Its complicated.

Fyi , Fazdli = Ali. haha . & Sorry uh korang, nari tkde gossips bout Mr A. haha . Congrats to the Netballers ! Champions eyy korang. I loike (:

Todayyyyyyyy tireddddddddddd.
Mira was absent. So i go to school alone. As i walk through Sunplaza, i saw Mr Adam ! Tkmo jealous Nana ! haha . & Abirah npk Fazdli ehh dlm bus . Haha xD.
Reach school at 7.08am (Maseh siang !) Nvm. Haha. First period was MT. BORING. Next was CH, lagi boring tapi kelakar. Only Me , Nana , Karisma and Fieqah knows. HAHAHA . l o n d e h dok ! Toot senget sia Mr A. HAHAHA ! Go buy new pants please ~

Next was recess. Talking about Mr A again. HAHAH. Maths was next. I was in a bad mood. Mira , Oni and Abirah knows why. Sardi and Karisma knew hows my face was. Haha . English was next. HAHAA. Mr A again. Before the period ends, we have our free time. Me and Nana chit chat byk eh partner ^ ^ . Haha. Talked with Sardi bout something. Then Nana realise that Mr A dah adjust seluar nye ! HAHAHA ! Tdi pagi da clear shot.

Mr A gave us our pictures taken during the elective modules. He asked me to paste the pictures on an a4 paper. Gambar² sume kelakar. HAHA . Next was FT at Mdm Zhou's class. Then school ends at 210pm (lambat!) Otw out to school, Qaiyum was like " eh lom masok jail lagi ? haha. sombong sak farah" . I was like , =.='' and just walked away. Then i rush² to Sunplaza to meet Fazdli. Kesian dier tunggu lame² kt dpn 7 11. Lol. After that we went somewhere near Rc, a few minutes later Dj Sepet and gang came. Omygosh. Haha.

Something happen, Sigh. Dont worry laa Ali. Tkde pape punye. Then Paneer , didi and Ahbon came. Received news, both good and bad. Pfffft;/
Then took 962 together with Ali. Mcm² org dier kenal. Mane² pergi mesti ade kwn dier. Lol. I drop off at Tekong . Saw Sadiq and Apis. Went to selit² Mira's hwk kat bwh pintunye. Haha. Then go home ! Haish. Tired.

K bye nk tdo !

Just came back from Cca. Pheww ! Penat . Padehal baru bape2 kali je joget. Haha. Gonna have cca on every monday, wednesday and thursday til SYF. wahliao! But what to do. Getting busier, as 3A2 is gonna have extra class on a Saturday from 9-10am. Sigh.

First day of school this term sucks. Pagi² da muke tgk si DIER tu and got scolded from cos of my hair. HAIYA ! Next was english. The class got another scolding from Mr A. Kelakar sakk . HEE. Mane huh partner kus ?? HAHA. Next was recess. Then Chemistry, so sleepy cos boring. And then math also the same. We got scolded for every lesson but we never fail to laugh everyday. Haha.

I hate the new timetable. Urgh~ Had malaydance from 3-530pm. Also get scolding from Mdm R. Haish. After cca, Mdm R wants to talk to me personally about something. It was about the HQ thing. Haiya, satu² nk kepo. Skrg baru nk tnye. Sheeshh. Mira , kalau dier nk bbl dgn kau. Selamat laa. Haha. Tk abes² aku jugak yg kene ditnye2. Lol.

I felt super relieved when u msg me last night eventho' the msg is not nice but still u msg and felt puzzled bout my schedule.

To you, i thought ur the one that can make me happy. Cos u cared for me so much when i had a miserable day with your friend. U lend me your shoulder, i appreciate it alot. We've been going well until last friday at the Smb park. When i went home and you stayed and get drunk with them, thats where the trouble starts. Right ?

Cant you stick to one ? If the both of us are back to normal like always, then i'll think about it. If you behave nonsensically, then byebye. I thought ur perfect for me but i was wrong, you were the same like your friend. U didnt get her and now u want me. Are you using me ? Tkmo slh paham psl ape ? Not ready for what ? Then why in the first place you wanted to be with me so much ? Luckily we're not together cos i'd rather be sad now then in a relationship with you.

Why does this happen now ? All the time we spent together was all for nothing ? For now, i'll just keep quiet and lets see your move. Its all up to you now cos i have nothing to loose. Its just that you played around with my heart. I bet something bad is gonna happen again. I can sense it. Up to you larh kay, if u regret then that is not my problem.Cos that is just the same mistake you did with your ex. Im tired of all this. I dont trust you anymore. And at the same time, i learnt something new.

But whatever it is, me and Oni will not fight with each other because of you. Right Oni ? (:
February and March, sway~
The months that i had a miserable time and i did alot of mistakes. Thanks, Oni, Abirah , Miraa for comforting me. U girls are the best ;D eventhough some part of it you gerls cant really help that much. I still sygg korang .

21March09. The day that is good to bad at Smb park. We were so excited to go there and wanna have fun. There were, Kak Nana, Abg Remy, Wak, Pearl, Halimah, Shasha, Wan Barney , Paneer, Ahbon and more. Sardi and Gang came in. Birthday Boy , Aidil came late and didnt get to see him. Wasted. But it turned out to be ugly in the end, for me and Abirah. Kan ? Sigh. Cant i get a proper love for once? Cant my heart be at rest ?

Bye, nk abeskan art hwk.

Firstly, i miss this boy very much. Hehe. & I know Mira miss someone too. Lol. This morning, i went to shop at Expo with Miraa. The rest cant make it . Spent $30 just now. After that, we had our lunch at CausewayPoint at MacDonalds. Me and Miraa chit chat. Hehe.

And Abirah called when we're at Expo. Babe, relax okay? Think positive. Im shocked too. I know how u feel. I know its sad but be strong kay ? Eventhough 27 tk jadi, u still have other time right ? (:

When i heard bout that, im sure im gonna miss them alot. One case after another. I hope they are okay. Babe, u should be glad that its only a week, rather than 2 years right ? Just calm down kay. Im sure everything is gonna be fine. Hope to see you smiling all the way (:

Currently, saket aty dgn art hwk. HAIYA. okay gotta finish my assignment. Bye !

& Mr A, tnye2 kwn aku if im attach or single npk. Asl eh ? hah! Kinda felt irritated by it. Sape lagi kau nk tnye ? Puas aty, Tnye ahh satu dunia (:

The last time i blogged is on Monday. On Tuesday, i cant remember what i did -.-'

On Wednesday, went to school for Malaydance. After that I went out with A, Nasir, Nasha, Ahmad and Fai. Ingatkan ade ppn or more people coming, paitau?-.-''
So yes, im the only gerl. We went to Jalan Besar to watch soccer match. SAF vs (?)idk what. Lol. From 7pm to 9pm. I was like shouting "ahh !" , "ehh !" haha. Shout like gegerl with Nasir. Rindu kau larh, da lama tk jumpe . Lol. Raya rumah aku ehh this year. Farid tong sampah ! hehe . At times, Ahmad, Nasha and Nasir were looking at SAF cheerleaders. HAHA ! gatal je ehh.
One of the SAF footballer is H-O-T. Haha. Number 2, name Shaiful. HEHE. A menyampah with me. HAHA. main² je larh. After the match, i went home while the rest went to esplanade for dunoe what.

Today, had malaydance again. Yeay, ade Elly ! hehe. She is so cool~
But damn tired. After malaydance, Mira, Fyee, Nadia, Sirah , Rina and me went to jalan² at Smb shopping Centre. Shop sane sini. Bump into Ainie and friend, with Firdaus. Then took shuttle bus to smb mrt. Me, Nadia and Sirah went home. The rest went to Causeway. Penat deh~

Tomorrow after md, me , Mira , Sirah , Apis and A maybe, we are going to expo. Teman mira go buy barang².Hmmmmmmm. Saturday keluar lagi ! haha, watching movie at Golden Village with Mira and Oni. heh. K larh bye !

You people maybe confused bout me and Acap right ? Well, we're not together anymore. So jyeah ;D
He went his way. I went my way. Both happy. My friends at Rc and Mira knows what happen. Fadil, once again. Thanks. Thanks Birthday Boy. Lol. I manage to tahan my tears and keep smiling at people. Such an achievement ! Lol. I know Mira fedup giler. Sigh. Acap, hope your happy eh. Kalau da menyesal , tkmo nk merangkak balik kat aku. Gi ah enjoy dengan "brother²" kau. HAH. Wadever~

Waste my fucking time just to go there. Fadil panggil dier lari -.-'. Urgh. This is my last time gonna type Acap's name. He is outta my life. After that incident , i decided to "go home" LOL. Padehal² . Sorry Abirah and Sirahh. Met someone at Admiralty. Coicindently, he knew one of my ex who live there ;D

There was this one india guy. Kept looking at me. He was on the phone saying " i like this girl. sweet lips . Sweet face" Then i was like WTH. I quickly went to the toilet. And guess wad ?! He followed me ! Sial . I asked HIM to meet me outside toilet and quickly walk away. Seram siaa.
After that we slack near Woodlands Ring Sec. Miraa called and was freaking mad bout Acap. HEHEHEH. Shhh Miraa. Then went home at 6pm. He send me fyi. LOL.

K bye !

Labels: Im not a playgirl ok

2nd post of the day.
Just wanna express something.
To this person who is disturbing abirahh, whats ur motive ? just stay away from people's life bodo.
2ng thing , is that.
Acap, whats wrong eyh with you.? u urself say that u've changed all of a sudden. What cause this ? Why are u reacting this way? Wad did i do wrong ? And not only my msg u didnt reply. The others as well. Tomorrow we are going to talk ! *grrrrr.
U hurt me even more when u said "i tk tau lh asl i cam gini. lebih baik u lpskan i. i tknk saketkan aty u lagi. im sorry". wth does tat suppose to mean ? til now u didnt reply my msges. WTH!
&& tmr mira got camp. alaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa rindu sia pipi kush. haha.

12 March.
Received report slip without report book bcos Ms Rita doesnt know where is it -.-
& Yes i passed. But my conduct is Good. Wth.
Eng ; 54- Grade 5.
MT ; 54- Grade 5. (whole class dropped-.-)
Math 74- Grade 5
Sci ; 41- Grade 5 (stupid chem)
Ch ; 56- Grade 1
Art ; 70 - Grade 2

Farahin is a sweet-natured and helpful pupil who promptly responds to requests made by her teachers. She submits work punctually and is always attentive in class.

(no comment!)

13 March.
SportsDay. Sembawang Youth Games.
Mr Loke put me in 400m. I got into the finals. My opponents all the maut² punyee. Mariani, volleyballers, Sirah, Abirah, Rahayu. Who won? the volleyballers lor. Pancit! Got 5/8. Imagine you would have to run 1 round of the stadium on a slippery track. The champions were the Green Falcon. Congrats. Second were Us, Red Lion. Followed by Blue Marlin and Yellow Cheetah. Congrats Red Lion , we won the cheerleading. Oni laaa kan. Haha. I was totally hyper that day. Mr Loke too. Like Crazy~ Nadiah saw Mr Julian. Ape laagyyy. HAHAH !
The house tshirts were not ready yet so we have to wear P.E and pin up colour cards at our shirt for participants only.

And yes, today is the final day for the Elective Module. Gonna miss you Mr Alvin ! He is such a wonderful teacher.

I didnt realise Mira took this . Lol.

& yeah, i did this . LOL.

Had really a wonderful time. Wish this to happen again and again. So that we dont need to go to class. HAHA .

& on this day, we patched[:
Were continuing our monthsary on the 30th like usual.
But stiill, u didnt changed yet. I already gave u time to changed and promised me u wont be this way again. I still dont understand why you suddenly changed. Am gonna investigate into it.

14 March.
I was assigned to help Ms Aslinda and Mr Sulaiman about the Combined Humanities thing. Nabil and Mira too. After that , Mira went out with family. Nabil went home first . Abirah was absent because she overslept. So i texted acap to meet him at the usual place. While on the way there, i bumped into Aidil and Shahar. They went up to Acap's so i followed. Yan and Akim was there. Guess wat? AKU NI INVISIBLE PE ! tk salam tk ape. Look at me as if i was his enemy. Two-faced huh ?-.-'

At the rc, Yan bukak lagu airport. Acap smiled and sing along also. I got fed up . So i decided to just go home and not waste my time. I texted him and talk to him. Forced him to reply my msges. Im freaking sadddddd. When i reached home, Dad decided to go out to Jurong point so i just tagg along. The whole day i put up a long face. Luckily my mum didnt realise. I ate alot. When im stress, i ate alot alot. SIGH.

Ohh godd, pls help me):
how long are we gonna be this way.

BYE!

ITS OVER. 301008-120309. BYEBYE.

2nd day of Hairstyling course. Perming ! teeheee[:
Punye lah susahhh. Lol. Liyana cut my fringe, expert ahh dier ! Haha. Anthony and Leon are the greatest hairstylers. Lol. Anyone wanna perm/rebond? approach them ehh. FREE. LOL. Recess was next. Then continue with the Hair thingyy. Had lots of fun camwhoring and laughing[:
Pictures will be uploaded tomorrow. && Happy 15th Birthday Faizal. Da besar sehh dier. The whole of us in hairstyling course sing him a birthday song and guess wad ? he was blushing. hahah ! Then, pictures here , pictures there. Perm here perm there. Straighten here straighten there. Haha. And and after school.... Im sorry kay Miraa[:

Went home, get dressed, eat, then went out the stadium and met up with Abirah, Fyee and Miraa. Abirah suggest to practice running for 4oom for the finals this Friday. WAHLIAOS. Pancit !! Hahah. After that , went to eat Longjohn at CausewayPoint. Da lari tros makan fast food. Lol. "Fast food tk kenyang. Food court lagi bagos" HAHA. And once again, Im sorry Miraa[: & Thanks for the help. Appreciate it. And Abirah, thanks to you too.

I'll be doing some thinking bout IT. & tomorrow i will not be attending school ! weee ~ blh bgn lmbt. But ! i'll miss the course. But should i go to the house meeting ?? hmm..
& to you, why are you doing this to me ? i know i did mistakes before. And im sorry. But why are you like thiis now ? Revenge ? U hurt me soo much right now. U didnt hurt my feelings last time. But now ? Wads got into you ? Do you want me to do something that you didnt want to happen? I already told you ur mistakes and everything . Til now, u didnt change. Even ur own frends didnt know why are u like this now. Pentingkan brother then me ? If u can spend ur time with them, then wad about me ? Its been 4 months already. We are not like how we used to be. It seems like u didnt care bout me anymore. It seems like i dont even know you animore. U like to hurt me so much dont you ? Did bad things behind my back and give stupid excuses. And today, i just get to know something bout you that really2 hurts me. Makes me wanna cry. If this goess on, then im sory. Eventhough i still love you. Cos i wanna do wads best for me and i dontwant to see myself being hurt. Yesterday, u msg me just to ask bout that attention seeker. And i wondered whos the musibat ur refering to ? wahh da gangster eh. fierce eh. dgn mataer sndiri pon nk gangster. i think im being too nice already. *tears*

BYE.

Labels: aku da banyak bersabar.

Firstly, by calling us a bitch , kiter takot uh kirekan? hah ! kau tu attention seeker. its a FACT. Us bitch ? soooooo ? tk payah nk jalan dgn pantat2 and jeling uh. Too scared to solve this or malas ? pfffft;/ Nk tangkap jambu. And hello, all girls are attention seeker ? WRONG. But wad is Right is that you are one of the attention seeker. We didnt call u a bitch or wad so ever. Memang btol kau flirty and i understand thats the way you are. Its the FACT FACT FACT. Not an insult. Since when i say that u were flirting with acap ? Did i ? any proof ? I didnt even talk to you. I only say that you were flirty because you are, with other guys.Urgh. Jgn2 nk cari sympathy pulak. -.- Kau pikir aku takot by saying all those things at ur blog ? aku tk kesahh pon laaa syg. I understand your situation. But why must it be with your frends. Sikit2 dier . Sikit2 tu. Sikit2 ni. How can you force Abirah to get out of the sch so fast ? Ajak dier cabot malaydance? urgh. watch that attitude girl. Limits ! All those things u say in ur blog nk uat kiter malu uh? nk uat org kesian kan kau ? hah ! i know u. Aku paling pantang kalau org benci kiter for the wrong things,misunderstandings, especially YOU and ur drama. Okay Drama Queen? Now, im calling you an attention seeker. Kau nk threaten aku ? hah. tk dapat ah kay [:
Kau blom tau bape sial aku ni when it comes to hating people ;D
Ur too much.

Today is the first day of the elective module. HAIRSTYLING COURSE !! weeeee ~ gerekk. Leon and Anthony was my hairstylist ^ ^
Had super fun today with my girlfriends.
Halfway, nadiah saw a guy, by seeing the hair , she was like " eh hot2" skali pusing, ahhhhhhhhhh ! pecahhh ! HAHAHA. && Adam laaa. Mr Loke laa. Mr Zaff laaa. HAHA. & Too bad Karisma kene gi class lain. Kalau tak, lagi gerek ! Sempat eh amek gambar. And mira, Banyak. HAHA xD.
Had early recess. Then totally forgot about Ahbon's homework. I wass super rushing. Welcome Ahbon [:
Next was the theory, B O R I N G. almost fallen asleep as the weather is cool ~
After that , it was suppose to be Math tpi tk blaja [:
Instead, we continue meddling with our hairs . HEE.
Then on the way to assembly, stop by at the FnN room and taste some of my classmates food. Delicious [:
Whos the chef ? CHEF ANDRI ! haha. cool. Had assembly, bout the sports thingy. Then nadiah was like, eh mane julian. dier hot ! lol !
After that , met akim for awhile. Tat is where i got mad;D why ? heeh. He told me to uat bodoh if she is there. How ? ...
Then, Nadia nana and fieqah lepak. Me and mira go home. today not so in the mood to lepak. Seriously. Hujan lebat. Im wet. Lol.

K bye.